I am an introvert.
When I was little, I remember getting into a lot of trouble because I wouldn’t say hi back to people when they said hi to me. I remember out right refusing to do things in front of others and dropping out of speech events at school because I was so terrified. Thanks to my parents forcing me (honestly, I am grateful they did!), I got better at being in front of people and even started to enjoy it! I liked doing speeches, being in plays, and especially debating. I can speak in front of crowd today without freaking out, but I am still an introvert. I don’t like going places with loads of people where I am going to have to talk to them all night (hiding in a corner is preferred). If I am constantly around people for days and days, eventually I will either lose it or find somewhere to hide for awhile. I like my space, my house, and my quiet.
I have never been the life of the party and I am totally cool with that. I wasn’t the one in school who had a huge group of friends and I was fine with that, too. As time has gone by and circumstances of life have changed quite a few times, I have gained and lost a lot of friends. Over the past year I have found myself saying many, many times that I don’t have any friends. THIS IS A TOTAL LIE!
Yesterday morning I woke up to a message from a friend in Malta. An hour later, I got a message from a friend in Texas. I checked the mail today and got an amazing gift from a friend in Washington State. I messaged friends in Ontario, four different states, the UK, and Kazakhstan throughout the day.
No, I don’t have any friends that live really close to me. No, I don’t get together with friends weekly to hang out. But, I do have friends. I have the most amazing friends, actually! They love me and accept me exactly how I am and not how they think I should be. They have been there for me, laughed with and at me, cried with me, prayed with me and argued with me.
When I got the mail today, it kinda just hit me how grateful I am for the friends I have. So to each one of you, I say thank you! I hope that someday I am able to be there for you just like you have been there for me. I love you all!